Oh how I do not miss my time with Philonius. I actually told him “thank you for freeing me!” But he hoovered me back in later. I did learn eventually though.

I noticed no one has shared any of his monologues. At first they were 10-30 mins of hell, then hours of hell, until I realized the harsher his reaction, the more I somehow insulted him or made clear an ugly truth. So they became compliments in a way, soon after I stopped caring and he set me free for real.

This is the most insipid monologue everyone on the planet needs to memorize and weaponize against narcissistic exes. I’m sure you’ve heard it

I’m the only person who cares about you enough to tell you the truth about yourself. Everyone else is too afraid to tell you these things, or they’re just trying to get something out of you. I say these things for your own good! I don’t enjoy giving you these life lessons you should’ve learned years ago. You should be thanking me!

…I start crying because I’m so confused and overwhelmed…

Wait. Are you fucking crying again?! I didn’t say anything to make you cry! (He’s yelling this lol) Cut the shit. Stop crying. Stop crying now!

Now I’m a blubbering mess…

What the f*** is your problem? Oh you think I’m being mean. Poor little baby. You can dish it out but you can’t take it. Go play victim with some other guy. You aren’t even worth the trouble…

STOP CRYING!! You’re nowhere near hot enough for me to put up with this shit, you fat ugly bitch! Get the fuck out! Go cry to someone who will lie to you about all your inadequacies and sugar coat everything to make you feel better about yourself.

Sometimes he took my crying to heart. Especially when it made sense to him, but if it didn’t, that’s the monologue.

BEWARE THAT MONOLOGUE!!!