He always made me feel like I did something wrong…didn’t call for a week and then he texted…I saw his name on my phone screen and it made me sick. My stomach tightened, my belly hurt, I was sweaty and nervous. All of this escalated into panic attacks. When it was already clear that he was throwing me away like a hot potato again, I wrote him one last message. My heart pounded in my throat, I thought I was going to puke. Everything inside me was shaking. No one had ever made me feel this way before. He never responded.He really never cared. It felt like I died inside that night. That’s all I wanted to say.